Sunday, August 3, 2014

One, Final Love Letter


When I started this blog in 2008, I had no idea what I was doing. 311 blog posts later (312, if you include this one) I still don't, but oh, what a fun, fun ride it's been!

Six years.

I have been sharing the "view from here" for six long, glorious years and I am so very, very grateful for all of it. My sons and I have grown enormously during that time and so many wonderful people have entered our sphere, through this blog.

Thank you all for reading and crying and laughing and sharing. There is nothing quite as satisfying as knowing that my words, tumbled onto these pages, have reduced someone to tears or made them snort coffee from their nose.

My heart is full up with the love I've known here at Life With Bellymonster. And yet....


And yet.

I have struggled, this past year, NOT to write the stories that fill my heart and mind. Struggled with knowing that even though *I* consider oversharing my special gift, my children may not. They are growing older, wiser and I need to respect that my journey as their mother does not necessarily mean that theirs need to be shared, too.

I've been chewing on this for months now, trying to find the balance between my needs and theirs.

I've also been thinking hard about the other children in my world - the ones whose faces and stories have taken up much space in my head and my heart. And whose stories I cannot share here. Or anywhere, really, without betraying their trust and their confidences.

It's a conundrum. And it's a sign.

I don't know what I'll do next, darling readers. I imagine that I'll build another blog, though its content and purpose isn't clear yet, in my mind. I cannot imagine NOT writing, oversharing, inducing coffee-snot and tears.

 I am choosing to trust that it will be, though, and that it will be a glorious work-in-progress, like this one has been.

Like I am. Like we all are.

In the meantime:

Thank you, from the bottom of my heart, for allowing me to share my world with you and for offering me such wonderful, poignant glimpses of yours in return.

Be blessed. Be good. Be the good, beloveds.


Much love,
Bellymonster (and the Reds)

Bellymonster and the Reds, 2014



23 comments:

  1. Oh, my gosh. I've enjoyed following along. I haven't commented much - sorry about that - but you are a gifted writer. Let your final post be one that tells us what the new one's called and where we can find it.

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    1. Well, gah, Dave! Am tickled that you've been reading. Will provide links when I sort out what it is that I want my next blog to be/do. Thanks for reading and believing! xxx

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  2. You are a gifted mother and writer, I have enjoyed bumping into you and your blog! Thanks for sharing! Good luck!

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  3. Thank you, my friend! For reading and for random meeting! And ditto, sweet Sabrina. You too, much share more stories!

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  4. I LOVE LOVE LOVE your blog, please be selfish and disrespect your children's right to privacy...

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    1. Oh, Middle-Aged Lady, how I adore you! I know that you live somewhere close to me and wonder if we've met. Perhaps we should and then we can become friends in real life and we can share stories over tea (or Baileys).

      Thank for your eyes and heart these past few years - I have always looked forward to hearing from you, here and there. I will blog again - once I work out the direction my heart needs.

      Until then, consider yourself hugged.

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  5. I'm so glad I discovered you and your blog (thanks to Jenna!). I've also had the pleasure of meeting you in person! You're an inspiration and if I can be half the mother to Little Miss Z as you are for your boys, I know I'm on the right track <3

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    1. Sweet friend, thank you - for reading, for laughing, for crying, for joining me in this wondrous place where we are all named "Mama." I am thrilled to call you friend and to get to share in YOUR journey. And to sneak peaks at your perfect Miss Z - who is blessed to call you her mother. xxx

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  6. Looking forward to the next chapter, Liz. Thank you for your many contributions to the "Posts with the Most"!

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    1. My friend, you have been a quiet though steady support and influence these past few years. I will continue to read PWTM and delight in all the lovely words you find for your readers. xxx

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